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Agar tiada siapa yang melihat kesedihan ku

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Ingin sekali aku terbang setinggi bisa agar pudar segala rona

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Bicara soal hati yang dilukai

Lelah ku menempuh semua ini

Duhai matahari bersinar cerialah kau

Agar langit gelita tak kunjung tiba

Agar tidak dapat membasahi hati yang duka ini.

The heart that truly loves never forgets.

If you asked me what I miss most, I'll said "THEM" my friends. Walaupun persahabat kami terjalin around 2 and half years but it's strong and we live like family. To live together through thick and thin shared our story together and laugh when it's hurt. 

We creating our own world, lumrah dalam PERSAHABATAN pergaduhan mesti akan terjadi and let past just be a past I don't want to blame anyone actually that was a process to be matured and I'm so glad setelah  hampir 1 tahun if I'm not mistaken tak tegur and finally kita rapat semuala seperti dulu. Kedewasaan membuat keputasan akhirnya stick us back together. 

I hope our friendship will be for ever and we will me in Jannah one day Ishaa Allah

I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH !

MEMORY LAND :

Our trip to Langkawi, we have so much fun there :)

Me and my beloved Housemate Oyie, KLCC outing

We shared our story much.

I MISS YOU DAMN MUCH !

This picture taken 1 semester *Maybe Outing to Bukit Melawati

SEREMBAN, after celebrating Syira birthday :)

Our first overnight haha, so unmatured ! we laugh and laugh tu jeh lah activity nya :P

SURPRISE , my beloved classmate and housemate birthday we share the same date but different month 

here we are in Port dickson spending our morning snaping picture while the other are sleeping 

Ayam BBQ terbaik :) Menchari tempat BBQ punya lah susah itu semua memory :')

The person i closed most Suziaana Badarali, she can sing but too much shy loh.

She's like my sister I shared everything with her, I called suzy as suen don't know why

she love crying and gelabah during presentation Ooh suen Miss you much !!

Power puff girl, The girl team I so closed with them. I LOVE YOU GUY'S SO MUCH !

Empangan Sg Tengi

3.sept.2012

Another boring Monday noon searching place to " lepak " near with Unisel Bestari Jaya , Empangan Sg tengi the peaceful place to release tension after finishing class or to run from a busy student life . Almost 2 hour we enjoys the natures there while ate keropok lekor that we bought from Pasar malam Kg sebelah . We were Taking picture , gossiping and the most important part is we had talk about our future what we'll be in the next 5 years from now , a bit funneh . The four of us insyaallah planed to have a wonderful vacation going to anywhere as long we keep to be together . 

  

Happy Abah day :D

I was born in small families only have Abah and Mak , although I am an only child I have not been spoiled as an another kids I trained to be independent since childhood . Abah played a major role in educating me to become a useful future , he is fierce and always serious when forming my personality he taught the best way to talk, walk, eat and so on .

What can i describe about my Abah personality is he was a simple guy on earth i think lah , he don't like to punish me if i committed the offense but the way he sit and have a talk with me he taught me what was wrong and what should i do when i was wrong . Honest to say , I'm not an angelic boy born with a wings I do a lot of mistake and I still do it now .

But one story Mak had told me , when I was 5 years old i involved with an accident a motorcycle violate me from behind and i was injured had to stay for a few weeks in hospitals and the scars still remains in my knees , and you know what ! Mak told me when i was in the hospitals Abah had made a bumper in front the road of my house to make sure that I will safe when i go out from the gate . Plus mum said on that time all the people in 'Kampung Kerdas' said my fathers was crazy lah and so on lah . Ahahaa , funny doh . 

One fact about Abah , he have a stony heart . He never shown me that he loved me by the words or present even a good night kiss like Mak always do at me , but i believe in deeply inside he loved me ever because abah always reloads my hand phone even thought I never ask for it , Love you till jannah Abah " Mr Tamrin B. Arab "

" You’ve seen me laugh You’ve seen me cry And always you were there with me. I may not have always said it But thanks and I love you Happy Abah’s Day "

Happy Pills .

They are my happy pills which I do not need drugs, alcohol or excessive entertainment just to cheer me it was normal in friendship sometimes we hurt by the words, discouraged by the behavior it is normal because we are the people who can not flee from making mistakes .That is the purpose why we are friends, we have one another exhort each other. We often make mistakes and need people to guide us and not bring us down . Friends are willing to listen a painful and mellitus story that we have faced ,I am thankful to know you all although I often hurt them, but they stayed with me and always help if I am in trouble . They are the ones that always make me laugh and sometimes forget the problems that I faced . We can not replace the friendship that was forged to the property and love because friendship fostered from the sincere heart of a man to accept us become friends . It does not matter, however bad our friends he is still our friends we need to guide and advise to become a better person . Do not evaluate or contravene our friends based on his past sins, the sin is God's dealing, we can only pray that the sin is forgiven immediately and that is character a glorious friends .

" We shared smiles 

We wiped d tears.

and through d years,

Our friendship grown with us.

Thanks for always making me smile

You are truely a wonderful part of my life"

 

        

 

Love is the Losing game

Today was a boring day for me just spent sitting in front of laptop while surfing the internet in the unconscious, I was stalking your profile , infusion for a while in my heart, a sense of longing to chat with you but you was offline . Missed our first relationship that is something stupid that I used to missed and i missed all the laugh, cry, share our problems, but it has become a memories . Our adolescence is a time where we do a lot the offense because on that time we are young , wild and free and all negligence was the one taught us and mature us to be more careful to choose the way of life in the future . Without realizing it, all that has passed leaving us and now what can I see that you're happy with the choice had you make it while me I am really enjoy my life now . I hope we always be friends and forget the past we have built .

"Effort. That's the only thing I'm asking for. It's so simple yet people make it seem like it's so hard"

Selamat Hari Ibu

This is the person who owns my heart and never be replace because she is the one , the only Mother I ever had . My Wonder Woman , take a good care of me for a 20 years . She is amazing because ALLAH only gave two hand and feet for her and she do all the things amazingly done without any excuses . She always make me smile , cooked my favourite meal , always know what is better for me . Dear mum , Thanks for everything I will not forget all your deeds and Insyaallah i'll pay it with all my heart and strength to take a good care of you as cared for me . With your Du'a make me more stronger to be faced with the world , and with your advise make me more confident to choose the right track for encountered . I'm so glad that I got you to be my beloved one . I Love You mak ever and after , and I Always pray for your happiness and get the well-being from Allah permanently . Insyallah our love till jannah <3

"Appreciate what we have now before they will go away to leaves us forever and at that time , crying is avail "

Najwa Latif - I Love You Lirik [Remake]

                         

I think this feeling has been erased in my heart but , inside I did not realize I started to fall in love with you . I started attracted by your attitude that , is always there beside me when I need . You like the moon that lighten when the night was dark what I want you to know that you are so special but , I can not express this love because I am weak and affaird will losing you one day . Let this love is eternal in hearts, even I can't have you , and you know i'll always be there for you .

Sorry , i miss you

I was invisible fallen in love with you and this love will not I express to you because I was weak, I am afraid when I express this feeling ,I will lost you as sea foam .I am afraid to lose people that I love , so let these feelings pent deep inside my hearts like Titanic are stranded in bottom of the sea and hide all the love story aboout jack and rose .Let the distance which separates us and the time envy , Even the earth dark without sunlight but I can still hear your voice that always be my spirit is enough already . Even though we are apart, our hearts always stay together Let this love pent up, because I was more comfortable to be friends with you , the way we share the grief and painful, the secrets and stories, crying and laughing together is quite beautiful in our relationship .Now I already away from you, I will pray that you always remember this friendship and care about this because you and me can not be together because we were created not to live together but bound to be friends .

Jealousy

Another day makes e feel’s lost a confident and strength to face with the world . I’m always praying that I was prefect like you , yahh you who are read my blog you’re perfect baby to compared with me . Sorry to says that I’m jealous with you , yess you ! No one else , have a happy family , lovely siblings and have a beloved one , Congrats dear I’m not like anybody , I just a unperfect to stand beside you I lost my positive charge, and it will not return to me again ! This unfortunate fate belong to me , All of you just can only criticizing because you’re not in my shoe and you never know how my day goes around . I’m not primitive i'm just feeling uncomfortable with my life . When I’m hanging out with my friends going somewhere to chill my mind actually I was not it is more worrying because my mind always run even if the body relax . Seeing people around me laughing and laughing as though they had no problem faced .                                         

Sorry , love that never existed

Put down everything that comes into your head and then you’re a writer. But an author is one who can judge his own stuff’s worth, without pity, and destroy most of it.” This heart will not be petted by anyone because my heart was dead to feel pleasure and happiness in love most of the love are forged and just sweet praise with counterfeit promises that caused this heart has died and my heart was buried with eulogy the lovers promises let it be because I've broken a thousand to seek the love that will never return . let this heart be numb for love and fall in love because in the end filled with sorrow and tears These tears are dry to me crying for love ,I am more than willing to live and die alone, no friends, and let me live like this if love is more painful than living alone .

I have grown accustomed to live like this

born in a small family, no brothers, sisters and little brother just me, mum and dad This condition used to make me more comfortable being alone solve my own problems, do the work themselves and share my own problems I have no one to share all of that but I am comfortable with the situation that others might not . Friends are just a friends, and  I am comfortable with them. Sometimes i am hurt because  of their behavior and sarcasm but I do not care because I know them . What should their know, I more like to be alone although I am a cheerful, I be happy because I do not want to show that I am sad in front of them because I am not a man who likes to show sadness by act  what I want, in front of them I was a happy and cheerful . I am not perfect and not to live in perfection , makes other people feel happy enough makes my day run perfectly because I wanted to die and be remembered with enjoyment that I bring to them and not the sadness .

sorry it is colorless :)

I am a man who are not perfect at all, I'm not perfect to compared with all of you I may be different, even if you see me as a brave but I'm not in such a way I like living alone and create my own world , if you give me a blank wall, I can turn it into a fantasy that you will not be visible but I only understand my world, no one will understand and even like where they are trying to understand, they will not understand let me be inside world, because I am comfortable with this world . No friends , colors , just an air to live and stepping on the green grass enjoys the rhymes of waterfall and bird sing a beautiful songs . The smell after rain , the smell of bakes and the heat of the sun . this is called freedom in life , i can run without any gun and bombing everwhere . Just being alive in the peacefull world . Feels the sunrise and a peaceful sunset . 

I need guidance

Born in the middle of concrete jungle that was my destiny.

I always dreaming about the Kampung Life where have a sawah and clean river 

mine also have a dirty gombak river.

I live in a busy town where people always think and work to gain money 

sometime i felt lost who I am actually because of the business of the town

at these moment I want guidance from someone who can bring me to the right way for living as a human to avoiding me from lost in the pace of this city.

One day Insyaallah :D