Black star ?

You such a good person, take care everything about me. I’m glad that you came in my life, our love story begin when I was sitting alone on the school yard finishing my lunch box at the moment you came and asked me either chair beside taken or not. I didn’t  like have a conversations with strangers, and I looked at you and said “ nope “ and that was the first “ hello “ words from me upon you. You sat beside me and ate your lunch that you bought, the wind blow perfectly smooth and your perfume seems like familiar for me and brings of something that is couldn’t remember. Ughh Try to remember that smell but I still can’t, I like to draw a black star on my hand near with thumb sudden you ask me about the stars, gosh I’m not trying to be snob. “ next time I will tell you why, because the bell will ring soon and we have to back in classroom “ I said. For the next day we met in same place I don’t think that you plan to be there again, Just ignoring you on that time, ate my pancake with iced lemonade. “ I wait for something “ you said to me “ huh, talking to me ? “ “ nope, that uncle nasi lemak” maybe you try to make some joke making me laugh nor It didn’t. “ tell me about the stars, common you promised to me” you repeat it. “ so semak, oke lahhhh” gasp. I love starts and moon, we lucky to have them shining our dark and cool night, sparkling high on the sky but they will disappear when the sun comes up, Then I draw the star because I miss them and can’t wait for night coming, get it ? “ And why black on your hand? “ you asked, “ Are you reporter? Writing an article about me? Huh “ I replied. “ Please tell me some”, “ I do it because I want to end this conversation Oke, not more than that ! For them I’m such a black stars”, “ Them ? “ (your weird face) “ everyone lah, school mate, friends Ohh forget I don’t have any friends, I love to sit here alone just me and my star no one could understand what I’m feel inside just judging people it sucks oke ! for them I’m just a stranger they called me black star !” my words “ but I never felt you like a strangers you just different from others lah” On that time I fell like something different, and I never told anyone about my life you’re the first one. Start from that moment we getting closer and sharing everything about life, Trying to end the conversation change to a relationship between me and you. You know that I’m not a good person but you always with me. After knowing you for a year and the memories still alive on my mind even now we are not together like before. The most precious memories when we out to city without any money for survive just left for eat, I’m not born with a silver spoon Only have plastic spoon in my house but you always beside me and never left me alone I remember your words “ Money can buy everything but not happiness” we spent our night together watching the night stars and moon on the peak sharing our life story while eating gummy bears and jelly bean, we came from different family background, you fully pamper with wealth while I’m not, spend our night playing fire work like a child, we laugh and  didn't realize we were making memories we just knew we were having fun on that night. When I’m sick you cooked a healthy foods for me when I’m stress you sang for me, at that time I’m fully blank why you doing that on me, I’m nothing no money. Now, you’re gone, for ever gone. You left me a box with letters and picture tears still drop when I read your letters

 “ Dear you, when you read this letter I will not be with you nor beside you or accompany watching night stars I’m so sorry. Knowing you make me more confident to spoke it loud more brave to have a night walk and had a big smile with my pink braces, we are born to be together maybe not here but in heaven you and me share the same heart in different body. Thanks allowed me to sit beside you during the lunch, I want to say thank you but your face grr scary. I wont say that “ I LOVE YOU “  because I can’t ! Maybe my mom had told you that I’m suffer from brain disease I have tumors and doctors said I have no longer life to stay. I take an action not to tell you because we have so much fun together and I wont spoil it up! When I see your smile even I know It was rough for you to do it make me happy. You have a rough life and I just want to make it smooth when you with me. Please don’t cry when I’m not here, do remember even I’m not beside you, believe that I always in your heart  stay strong face this world, you are not The black star! You different from others you’re my star always shone for me. ’’

You came without any invitations and left without any reason, To be honest I still miss you and need you in my life, when I watching the night stars I felt like you’re here accompany me. You always on my Du’a I hope we will met someday and holding hand together. Thank you for coming in my life even for a while, you an angles send by god.

Note from writer : To all lovers out there please take a good care your couple don’t miss them when it gone J